It's been a while since I've blogged..I've just been busy with school starting back up..One preschooler, one fifth grader and a sophmore.. wow!
Time has been flying by and before I know it, another week has gone by. My sister and I joined a Mother's loss support group through Hospice. It has been amazing. Last night was our last night and I woke up today feeling alive for the first time in months. I feel like I've been faking my way thru life since March 16th.
I've learned a lot in this class. Like letting myself feel however I feel, without feeling like I'm crazy. I am really bad about putting up front and acting like I am fine, but I realize now that it's ok to NOT be ok. I've learned that I need to take care of myself, especially during the upcoming holiday season..I can't be everything to everyone..
I've also realized that I am not crazy when I am brought to tears in the middle of the store when I see something or hear a song that reminds me of my mom..and it was ok to break down and cry in the middle of the music rental store when the lady whited out my mom' s name on our cello rental form.
I can't promise I won't be back at square one tomorrow....
But today, Thursday November 10th..I feel alive, happy and hopeful.
