Thoughts....

I have been feeling a lot of ups and downs lately.. Watching my mom go through cancer again has made me feel a lot of things.. Anger, why did this happen to MY mom, MY family?
Sadness, how can we get through this when the odds are stacked against us? Scared, how will I ever get along without my dear mom?
Optimistic, the doctors are doing everything she can and she feels ok right now.

My mom and I were having a discussion about how people can dissapoint us sometimes and that it is better not to have expectations from people because that is when they let you down. My mom made this statement "I know I have disappointed you and let you down at times". I didn't think about it too much til I got off the phone with her.. WOW.. I am really sorry she feels that way. I don't!

My mom is one of the strongest people I know, and she doesn't see herself like that.
She single handedly raised 3 kids to be contributing members of society. We are all happy people and she is responsible for that.
Sure, there were tough times for all of us but she did an amazing job!

I guess I have been thinking about my life and how fragile people are. As a child I never thought anything would ever happen to my mom.. here we are..dealing with it. We are strong and united though.. I love my mom, strong and beautiful!

Model Mania..

So Ricks cousin and her husband are professional models. They stopped in for a visit again this last weekend. We had a blast eating, playing dice, musical chairs and eating again.. Once again, they were good sports and let the girls dress them up for a "runway" show.

Presenting Jon and Stephanie Passavant:

After their stylist team were finished with them:Kalvyn, Jordyn and Madison Davis

Stephie at work on a regular day:

Jon at work on a regular day:

Thanks for a good time guys!

Rare Music Review

I Rarely review music, let alone buy it. I like music just fine but it's a rare occasion that I actually spend money on it. The last cd I bought was Amy Winehouse. I liked the raw edge to her voice and the bluesy tone to the music.

Well I found a soundtrack that I acutally fell in love with. My mom wanted the movie "Away We Go" for Christmas. We watched it together, very cute and quirky..but I absolutely loved the music. I jumped on Amazon and got it this week. The main artist is Alexi Murdoch. I love his acoustic guitar and lovely lyrics. There is a song by Velvet Underground and George Harrison too. I love the songs and they really touched my heart. I have been listening to them all weekend. I give this 2 thumbs up!

Here's Where We Want To Be Someday

This is totally crazy and some people may not believe it, but Rick and I made a long term goal for ourselves. We want to move to Oregon in couple of years.

I have NEVER even considered moving before a month ago.. NEVER.. I do like it here and never let my mind wander to the possibility of something else. A month ago or so, I woke up and had this strong urge to make a change. I thought about it and we talked about it and it feels right for us. There are so many great things about Oregon that we have been researching.

Pro's

1.Greenery

2.High 80's, low 40's

3. They have more farmers markets than fast food stops

4.Educations system is better, they spend a lot more per child than az

5.hiking and biking spots galore

6.20 minutes from the beach,,yes, 20 mintues

7.Green enviornment

8.peaceful feeling when I think about this change (i don't usually like change and avoid it at all costs.)

9.Rick would have no problem finding a job, lot's of good hospitals

10.I don't have to pump my own gas(they have a law that gas attendant has to pump gas, just a small pro, I hate pumping gas)

11.Mnt Ranier and Mnt. Hood are very close

Cons

1. farther from our familes(1.5 hour plane ride)

2.rains more(can't decide if this is a con or a pro)

3.slower lifestyle(i like the fast lane)

4.higher housing prices

Anyway.. We this will be a process and we aren't in a rush. I mentioned this to Tate and he said He's not going anywhere, We'll see!

We are going to make a trip sometime this year (allegiant air, $59 each way)to scope out some neighborhoods..

 

We had a great time at Disneyland! 14 hours of walking and no one even noticed until the walk home.. Can't wait to go back in about 5 years..